It's hard enough that I can't hear Him speak, it's hard for me to pray also.

Hi people, how're we all doing and how was our weekend? hope we had a funfilled and fulfilled one? I know i wasn't able to respond to comments on my birthday post, and sorry this is coming roughly two weeks after. Please do bear with me. I'M REALLY GRATEFUL for your words and prayers, THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH. I really do appreciate it and i love you all so much.



So i decided that i was going to set time aside this past weekend to seek God's face and pray concerning the jobless situation in my life (i'm making it sound really bad, right?). I was excited and preparing towards the weekend, i was really expectant and prepared myself towards that. Friday came and all i could do was think and pray a little (those under the breath prayers). Saturday came and i just didn't feel like praying 'cos i didn't know where to start from. I couldn't figure out how to pray for what i wanted, i wasn't too sure if i was going to utter the right words.
Then some of His promises started popping up in my head, But It felt so hard to believe He really made those promises, or better still it felt so hard to believe those promises were made to me and all i could do was cry and ask God to help me. Crying 'cos i can't believe my friend would not speak to me, crying 'cos i don't know if i did anything wrong (I've searched my heart and begged for Your forgiveness Lord), Crying 'cos i felt helpless, crying 'cos i couldn't hear Him speak, crying 'cos i felt my expectations were completely cut short (...the expectations of the righteous shall not be cut short, right? well...........) crying 'cos i believe i lost this battle again, crying 'cos i felt so ungrateful to God, crying 'cos i had my Bible in front of me and i just didn't know how to open and read it (seriously i didn't know how to open and read it), crying 'cos i'm angry at myself and my situation, crying mainly 'cos Eru ara mi'n ba mi (i'm scared for myself). Well, i sure stopped crying and started feeling sleepy and before i sleft off i asked God to try speaking to me in my sleep. Hmn...., He didn't speak o, or maybe He did and i didn't hear Him clear enough. I woke up and decided to take a walk, maybe that would help abi? Not at all, i didn't hear a word. Okay, maybe He spoke and my mind was too noisy to hear what He said, right? Bottomline, i heard nothing and it makes Eru ara mi ba mi the more (makes me scared for myself the more).
Sunday came, i felt much better, but i didn't feel like going to Church. I stayed at home and was listening to Pastor Joel Osteen's message when i slept off. I still didn't hear Him speak. I had to sneak out with my mothers' car to get something, and on the radio i heard " There are treasures in your trails". It seems the treasures in this trial of mine is either missing or i'm too blind to see it (I'm sorry but thats just how i feel right now).
God I'ld be a liar if i say You haven't been more than faithful to me in all aspects. But at this moment, It's just hard for Rinsola to post something else asides how she feels now right now especially since i just can't pray or hear from You.


N.B:
The fact that i just lamented doesn't mean i don't believe that God is working things out behind the scenes of my life. But would you understand if i say, right now I AM WEAK to accept that He is working out anything and my situation is weighing me down so bad?!

Have a great week ahead, and sorry that my first post after a previous thankful post spells ungrateful brat!

08-07-08 (New beginning - Perfection - New beginning)

Hello everyone, howz our week coming and how've we all been? Waoh, it's been more than a month since i last updated. I sure tried stopping by blogs but it wasn't as often as i would have loved to, but thank God i'm back now.
First i want to thank GOD alone who deserves all thanks and is responsible for my existence today.
I look back at my years and all i can do is cry, 'cos people, God is really GOD and has been God in my life, He loves me so much, with great jealousy He has showed me His love, He has loved me even when i messed up so bad. People, do you know God never forgets anything, yet He chose to forget my evildoings and still speak to me, oh my God, this God reveals things to me.
Great is indeed God's faithfulness over my life. It's been a challenging ride so far, but i would be so ungrateful if i say God hasn't indeed been faithful to me.
Jehovah Jireh:
He has proved Himself and He's still prooving Himself the Jehovah Jireh in my life. Sometime ago, God said "You don't have to have a job to pay your bills" and i remember immediately, i spoke out to myself, This isn't God speaking, you better wake up to the reality of life and stop saying things to console yourself or make yourself feel better" To make it worse, i was to share it with TERC members, are you kidding me? Share what? God i'm sorry i would shut up on this one o, i don't want to be percieved as a lazy christian, especially considering my situation. But thank God for who God is Numbers 23:19 "God is not a man, that he should lie; Neither the son of man, that he should repent: Hath he said, and shall he not do it? Or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?" To seal that verse Isaiah 55vs 11 "So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it". He has sent help to me from UNLIKELY SOURCES and it's been shocking and mindblowing i must say.
He has been Jehovah Shammah to me:
He has been there for me , though sometimes i feel He hasn't been there 'cos it hasn't been my way all the way, but He has been so there for me.
He has been YESHUA to me:
I testified on TERC sometime this year, how God saved me from total shame.
He has been Jehovah ROPHEKA to me, 'cos for as long as i can remember God has kept me in great health and away from the hospital, and you know how expensive health care is in this country.
ON FRIENDS:
Have you ever needed a friend, someone to hear you cry and listen to you? well, i lost mine sometime ago and ever since i haven't had that friend, but God has sent people my way. Those who I've never seen yet listen to my ramblings, uplift me in prayers and encourage me everytime.
TERC:
I can't thank God enough for TERC. Those who i've met, what i've learnt & still learning, how i've been blessed.
BLOGVILLE:
Are you saying why am i thanking bloggers and commenters? WORDS sure go a long way. To those who've stopped by one time or the other, those who gave the push and encouraging words when i was down, those who would rather share thier stories than keep it to themselves, those who have kept a smile on my face through your posts, pictures or comments. I feel like family when i'm either leaving comments or reading comments on blogs. I've known very special people through this medium, and all these people have been caring & amazing so far. I don't want to mention names 'cos they're all private people, from the lady who i called this week to say i got it, to the ladies who sent me materials to help me with my upcoming exams, to the ladies who we meet online and encourage me every single time we chat, to the funny ones who send me mails, to the one who come to check on me, to the newest one who makes me look at life entirely in an appreciative manner, to the ones who address me as if we've seen each other, then to the lady who has been WAOH to me in every aspect and calls me her aburo. You all know yourselves. God sure has no choice than to bless you all exceedingly.
Daddy without You, i am but dead. I just want to thank You for breathing life into me and making me see this day in great health and with new Hope. Thank You Lord for not giving up on me, thank You Lord for perfecting everything that concerns me and giving me a new beginning. I'm thankful especially 'cos from the time the clock ticked 12:00am August 7th 2008. You changed my story just like you did for the lame man at the beautiful gate, You are giving me testmonies that would amaze people and they would point to me and say "Isn't that the Rinsola who........?" .
Thank You Lord for Perfection and a new beginning. 08-07-08. Much love people!

Behind the scenes.......................

Please click the image on the left to visibly read contents ..........

Casting: I (God) don't call the qualified, i qualify the called.

Plot: Genesis chapter 1

Actors: You (Insert your name here) Isaiah 43 vs 1 : But now thus saith the LORD that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine.

Location: From your mothers' womb to your present location today.

Date filming begins: Before your were formed. Jeremiah 1 vs 4-5 :Then the word of the LORD came unto me, saying: 5. Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb ...................

Bloopers: Our sins. Romans 3 vs 23: For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.

I realized that a director never says 'CUT' if the actors/actresses are doing just the perfect thing. He cuts you when he either has an idea that would make that scene better or when he sees you're not doing the right thing. I guess when i do those things that God is against and those things that are not beneficial to my life and to those surrounding me, that's when He stands up and says CUT RINSOLA, CUT!. And when you are willing to listen and learn from a director, you become better day after day and i guess that's what makes you a better or great actor/actress. Same way, if we're willing to listen and learn from the Director of our lives, we'ld become better actors/actresses in our lives.

The movies we see today in theatres or on dvds are finished and perfected productions. But the real work is done BEHIND THE SCENES, when we hear the words: CUT, Now take two and stuffs like that. I've come to learn or read that it's tough being an actor/actress, especially when you're casted to take up crucial roles; but the men behind the scenes do a whole lotta hard work also, especially writing a good script, trying to make you fit into the character, and bringing a real and beautiful picture to the screen/theatre. All these men behind the scenes of these movies are just One Person behind the scenes of our lives and that Person is God - He's the ALL in One- The Scriptwriter, The Director, The Makeup artist, The Set designer......... The all you can think about that makes a great movie.

Without the Man behind the scenes, The star (Insert your name here) you see won't be called a star, 'cos the Man behind the scenes, perfects those scenes (Insert your situation) you're casted in and presents to you an award winning movie (Victory over whatever situation you would go through). 2nd Corinthians 12 vs 9 "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. " His grace is sufficient to see us through whatever scenes (situations) of our lives we are in .

As you go into this week, i just want to encourage you and remind you that when things seem stagnant, when things seem not to have materialized or when things seem not to be working out for you the way you want it, never forget that God is working behind the scenes of your life to perfect just what you may be expecting from Him. Not forgetting that 'Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.' James 1 vs 17

Can i say the father of light mentioned in the Scripture above is also the Lightning director? (LOL this is just me trying to be funny.)

Have a great and fulfilled week ahead people, and don't forget this is an encouragement; which means i'm needing it myself. Much love!

I'm learning & experiencing new and great things.........

Hello everyone, how've we been doing and how was your weekend? Happy father's day to all dads out there, and potential soon to be dads (Insert Dr Andy here)lol.

I've been having quite a lot of AHA moments with God lately, and each one is as new as it has never been heard or read before (if you know what i mean?). I was meant to share a different one with you all, but i found myself typing this out. Please take time to read this particular passage below, and also listen to the song playing on this page (That's my main testimony) God has been way too much for me.

2nd Chronicles 7 vs 14:

If My people who are called by My name, will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.
First thing i said to myself was, This passage can't be referring to me 'cos ..... (I was trying to justify myself) and suddenly, i heard His voice say "Doesn't this reveal to you that you're not being humble?". Isn't it amazing how God puts us in Check? (for me that was one of many ways). Here He was telling me that i needed to be humble and tell Him i was wrong for anything and everything i had done. In the Bible language and harsh words to my ears interprets it as : "Rinsola, you were wrong and it means you sinned!!!!".
Rinsola: but God don't i pray? You know i pray everyday, don't you?
God: You and i know what you always pray for, but never forget that the prayers of a sinner is an abomination unto My sight, and that of a righteous, better still humble man availeth much.
Rinsola: Insert confused look here @ the hearing of abomination!
As i sat down, He ministered to me what these sins could be either time wastage, prayerlessness, envy, malice, I'm just keeping away from her when i know in my mind it spells malice, greed, impure thoughts, just a joke lie, disobedience, pride, I don't have time for people like that, pretence, jealousy, taking that pen from your office to your house, hidden inside the heart sins that only the Spirit of God can discern. (REALITY CHECK!!!)
Rinsola: what? meaning WE all sin EVERY SINGLE DAY? (Not that i didn't know, but within me i was referring to great men of God).You can insert whoever's name you want to insert there, and answer to God when you're done (lol)
I now see why he wants us to HUMBLE ourselves. Many times we don't even know we have sinned. But He says that if we confess our faults, He is faithful and just to forgive them (I John 1vs 9).
2nd Chronicles 7vs 14b to me was like " Rinsola do your own part, and watch if i wouldn't do Mine".
Rinsola's job .............God's Job

1. If i Humble myself......... ..... ........He will Hear me (He would pay attention to me
2. If i Pray & Seek His face............. He will forgive me (for every single sin/fault)
3. If i turn from my wicked ways...He will Heal my land (My body, mind and soul)

I was humbled yet again by this passage and for me I've just been learning new things in my renewed walk with God. These few weeks have been challenging, yet mind blowing. I challenge you all who are not presently or genuinely in tune with Him to get back to your take me as i am walk with God, and begin first by seeking His face and i can assure you that you would be shocked at the things He will begin to show you and what He will begin to do. If you want to know what He's been doing in my life, i suggest you borrow the video of my recent weeks with Him from Him. You will rewind, pause, think, rewind, and keep rewinding I CAN ASSURE YOU!!!

Take care of yourselves, have a great week ahead, and let us remember to "Humble ourselves, pray, seek His face (on everything) and turn from our wicked ways". Much love!

Dealing with a conscious God................................

..........So a few Saturdays back, i was driving and a friends' call came in. I looked at my phone and when i saw the name of the person i was like "I'm not picking , 'cos when i called you, you didn't pick up either". As i drove over a bump, i heard the special still voice "Vengeance is mine, remember?" I remember replying Him, saying "But I'm not revenging, this is no serious issue, so why would i revenge? I'm just trying to make a point here". His response was, "When you retaliate, it is called vengeance". So what if i was sleeping or just sitting down, and someone calls me, and i don't feel like talking and i don't pick up the call?. His response: There's always a reason behind your acts, that is not vengeance, you don't feel too good to speak, right?
I remember smiling, and saying, God please, this is just everyday living with my friends, this isn't that serious. You know I will hold you accountable to all these serious and unserious things, right?. I've always known i was dealing with a conscious God, but that day and ever since that day, that incident has been like a written scar in my thoughts. I will give account for every millisecond of my existence, conscious or unconscious , so get it right and clear " You are dealing with the CONSCIOUS, NOTHING EVER OCCURS, WITHOUT KNOWING GOD" (Hebrews 4 vs 13: And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but ALL things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom WE MUST GIVE ACCOUNT).
I was reminded AGAIN, that "He's ever present, and He's really concerned and involved in my life and EVERYTHING that has to do with me, big deal or no big deal, serious or unserious". He whispered and said " Believe again, that I AM INDEED YOUR conscious FATHER".
As you start this month, be reminded again, that you have a CONSCIOUS, NOTHING EVER PASSES BY HIS SIDE WITHOUT KNOWING GOD. Be conscious and thankful that He is INDEED involved in your everyday life. Happy new month everyone, and i pray this month would be better and greater than months passed. Much love

.................My feelings

Have you ever tried to praise or thank God and suddenly you feel this rush of tears and immediately you become so weak?

-At that moment all hope is lost
-At that moment you cease to believe
-At that moment all you know & see is your problem
-At that moment your lips become too heavy to ask
-At that moment your heart bleeds heavily for you
-At that moment you've played the worst scenario possible
-At that moment you feel that is the end
-At that moment you're in your own world and the only inhabitant
-At that moment you wish you never sinned, you wish those mistakes were never made
-At that moment you desire to be someone else better, entirely other than who you're
-At that moment, you begin to ask yourself again, why me? why these situations?
At what moment, do you then wake to the reality of your problems being completely solved?
..I GUESS THE MOMENT GOD STEPS IN

So i was tagged........

So Darklecee tagged moi.
The rules:
1. Link the person who tagged you to this post-check!
2. Mention the rules in your blog –check!
3. Tell 6 unspectacular quirks of yours –check!
4. Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them –check!
5. Leave a comment on each of the tagged blogger’s blogs letting them know they’ve been tagged –check!This meme is about any particular mannerism you have, ok?
Some things about Rin-Rin shall be revealed abi?

1. If RinRin having an unbalanced sleep diet is a quirk, theck check it as #1 quirk.
She can go to bed at 6 am and function well enuff for the next 8hrs and go to bed at 2am again. She sure knows body no be wood, and would use the weekends for tunning up so she doesnt brake "break" down.

2. If RinRin writing her name everywhere is quirk, the check that as #2 quirk. Anywhere i go, and any oppurtunity i get, provided i have a pen with me, i would always write my name. Leave a mark everywhere u step.

3. If RinRin loving and taking garri anytime and season of the day is a quirk then check that as #3

4. If RinRin crying when winter begins is a quirk, then check that as #4 quirk. Lord why is today so cold, i know it is winter, but can we have snow without the cold?

5. If RinRin using only her nails to cut and shapen her nails is a quirk, then count that as #5 quirk. I don't use nail cutters or blades.

6. If RinRin loving to cook like she's on Maggi Kitchen is a quirk, then count it as #6.

Okay so who do i tag ? Aloted, Olamild, Allied, disgodkidd, Prettylyf, InukeOmotolaDavis