I BELIEVE IN GOD....

I believe in God………………………………………..
I believe in God because of His daily gift of free life and great health for as long as I can remember. Why won’t I believe in God when He shows Himself to me in dreams, in an entirely different, unique and awesome dimension.
I believe in God because just as His words are in the Bible, so is He. He said others will forsake me but He WILL NEVER FORSAKE ME! He has been THERE for me, more than I can EVER imagine.
I believe in God because just when I looked at those bills and calculated them, I knew without a doubt that I could not pay those bills, but just as I was about giving up all hope. He came through for me exactly when I needed it most, and without any begging from anyone, I can boast of having a great provider and sustainer. Why won't i believe in the God who spoke to me that day, that i didn't have to have a job to pay my bills (i sure doubted Him) But again, He's not a man that should lie, and He has shocked me through 16months of joblessness, paying all my bills, feeding me, clothing me, fixing my car, buying gas in my car, and still able to remind me that He stand by His words "I shall not lack anything good, or beg before i eat"
I believe in God because He has never stopped defining His names to me in many ways.
I believe in God because, Just as I was trying to cheat my way through ‘and help someone out during an exam in my last semester in college, in a hall of 120 students, My professor walked towards me and asked for my calculator and all eyes were on me, but few seconds before I handed it over to him, I asked God “Please forgive me and cover my shame”. He DID JUST THAT ; My professor came towards me and saw nothing on my calculator, but the moment he left, I looked at the calculator and saw what my professor didn’t see that would have kept me in trouble. I honestly can’t explain that, but He had mercy on me and lifted my head up.
I believe in God, because He has proved HIMSELF as GOD OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
I believe in God, because of how He ALWAYS comes through for me. (Please whenever I start sounding ungrateful, remind me of His faithfulness).
I believe in God, because I gave up on believing in Him, so many times and in so many ways, but not for a second has He ever given up on me or let me down.
I believe in God because when I’m down and loosing hope, He ALWAYS comes as a still small voice to remind me that He’s more than able, and becomes that peace that sends me worryfree to bed.
I believe in God because, whether i accept it or not I am a testimony of His great deeds.
I believe in God because He’s made me a believer of ALL OF WHO HE SAID HE IS.: THE GOD OF ALL POSSIBILITIES!
I DARE YOU TO BELIEVE IN THE GOD WHO DARES YOU TO BELIEVE IN HIM..........

Been a while and Happy birthday to................

Waoh.......it's been a while since i typed up a post. Getting bored of blogging? sure not. May God save me from procrastination and lack of time management.To all of you who checked on me, encouraged me, made me laugh and prayed for me; I'm saying THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH and i really do appreciate each and everyone of you. One of the reasons i'm putting up a post today is because of two of you. Believer and Nyemoni (i'm jealous they're birthday mates).Believer, i'm thankful to God for making you see today and for how far He has brought you and for where He's taking you to. I'm thankful to God for His faithfulness in your life, for what He has taught you and what He's teaching you. For those He has made their paths cross with yours', for how He has used you to bless, encourage and teach people.May the best friend ever (God) continually surprise you, may His blessings over your life never cease, may you continually bring Glory and praise to His name. In every area of your life may unexplainable and undeniable favour continually be your testimony. I also pray for your relationship with God, it will always be that of better to best. You always remind me of how important realizing and fulfilling purpose is and i pray that you will fulfill your purpose here on earth.Happy birthday and i want you to know i am thankful to God for being able to call you more than a sister, a FRIEND! Have a great and funfilled day. Love you much.

It's hard enough that I can't hear Him speak, it's hard for me to pray also.

Hi people, how're we all doing and how was our weekend? hope we had a funfilled and fulfilled one? I know i wasn't able to respond to comments on my birthday post, and sorry this is coming roughly two weeks after. Please do bear with me. I'M REALLY GRATEFUL for your words and prayers, THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH. I really do appreciate it and i love you all so much.



So i decided that i was going to set time aside this past weekend to seek God's face and pray concerning the jobless situation in my life (i'm making it sound really bad, right?). I was excited and preparing towards the weekend, i was really expectant and prepared myself towards that. Friday came and all i could do was think and pray a little (those under the breath prayers). Saturday came and i just didn't feel like praying 'cos i didn't know where to start from. I couldn't figure out how to pray for what i wanted, i wasn't too sure if i was going to utter the right words.
Then some of His promises started popping up in my head, But It felt so hard to believe He really made those promises, or better still it felt so hard to believe those promises were made to me and all i could do was cry and ask God to help me. Crying 'cos i can't believe my friend would not speak to me, crying 'cos i don't know if i did anything wrong (I've searched my heart and begged for Your forgiveness Lord), Crying 'cos i felt helpless, crying 'cos i couldn't hear Him speak, crying 'cos i felt my expectations were completely cut short (...the expectations of the righteous shall not be cut short, right? well...........) crying 'cos i believe i lost this battle again, crying 'cos i felt so ungrateful to God, crying 'cos i had my Bible in front of me and i just didn't know how to open and read it (seriously i didn't know how to open and read it), crying 'cos i'm angry at myself and my situation, crying mainly 'cos Eru ara mi'n ba mi (i'm scared for myself). Well, i sure stopped crying and started feeling sleepy and before i sleft off i asked God to try speaking to me in my sleep. Hmn...., He didn't speak o, or maybe He did and i didn't hear Him clear enough. I woke up and decided to take a walk, maybe that would help abi? Not at all, i didn't hear a word. Okay, maybe He spoke and my mind was too noisy to hear what He said, right? Bottomline, i heard nothing and it makes Eru ara mi ba mi the more (makes me scared for myself the more).
Sunday came, i felt much better, but i didn't feel like going to Church. I stayed at home and was listening to Pastor Joel Osteen's message when i slept off. I still didn't hear Him speak. I had to sneak out with my mothers' car to get something, and on the radio i heard " There are treasures in your trails". It seems the treasures in this trial of mine is either missing or i'm too blind to see it (I'm sorry but thats just how i feel right now).
God I'ld be a liar if i say You haven't been more than faithful to me in all aspects. But at this moment, It's just hard for Rinsola to post something else asides how she feels now right now especially since i just can't pray or hear from You.


N.B:
The fact that i just lamented doesn't mean i don't believe that God is working things out behind the scenes of my life. But would you understand if i say, right now I AM WEAK to accept that He is working out anything and my situation is weighing me down so bad?!

Have a great week ahead, and sorry that my first post after a previous thankful post spells ungrateful brat!

08-07-08 (New beginning - Perfection - New beginning)

Hello everyone, howz our week coming and how've we all been? Waoh, it's been more than a month since i last updated. I sure tried stopping by blogs but it wasn't as often as i would have loved to, but thank God i'm back now.
First i want to thank GOD alone who deserves all thanks and is responsible for my existence today.
I look back at my years and all i can do is cry, 'cos people, God is really GOD and has been God in my life, He loves me so much, with great jealousy He has showed me His love, He has loved me even when i messed up so bad. People, do you know God never forgets anything, yet He chose to forget my evildoings and still speak to me, oh my God, this God reveals things to me.
Great is indeed God's faithfulness over my life. It's been a challenging ride so far, but i would be so ungrateful if i say God hasn't indeed been faithful to me.
Jehovah Jireh:
He has proved Himself and He's still prooving Himself the Jehovah Jireh in my life. Sometime ago, God said "You don't have to have a job to pay your bills" and i remember immediately, i spoke out to myself, This isn't God speaking, you better wake up to the reality of life and stop saying things to console yourself or make yourself feel better" To make it worse, i was to share it with TERC members, are you kidding me? Share what? God i'm sorry i would shut up on this one o, i don't want to be percieved as a lazy christian, especially considering my situation. But thank God for who God is Numbers 23:19 "God is not a man, that he should lie; Neither the son of man, that he should repent: Hath he said, and shall he not do it? Or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?" To seal that verse Isaiah 55vs 11 "So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it". He has sent help to me from UNLIKELY SOURCES and it's been shocking and mindblowing i must say.
He has been Jehovah Shammah to me:
He has been there for me , though sometimes i feel He hasn't been there 'cos it hasn't been my way all the way, but He has been so there for me.
He has been YESHUA to me:
I testified on TERC sometime this year, how God saved me from total shame.
He has been Jehovah ROPHEKA to me, 'cos for as long as i can remember God has kept me in great health and away from the hospital, and you know how expensive health care is in this country.
ON FRIENDS:
Have you ever needed a friend, someone to hear you cry and listen to you? well, i lost mine sometime ago and ever since i haven't had that friend, but God has sent people my way. Those who I've never seen yet listen to my ramblings, uplift me in prayers and encourage me everytime.
TERC:
I can't thank God enough for TERC. Those who i've met, what i've learnt & still learning, how i've been blessed.
BLOGVILLE:
Are you saying why am i thanking bloggers and commenters? WORDS sure go a long way. To those who've stopped by one time or the other, those who gave the push and encouraging words when i was down, those who would rather share thier stories than keep it to themselves, those who have kept a smile on my face through your posts, pictures or comments. I feel like family when i'm either leaving comments or reading comments on blogs. I've known very special people through this medium, and all these people have been caring & amazing so far. I don't want to mention names 'cos they're all private people, from the lady who i called this week to say i got it, to the ladies who sent me materials to help me with my upcoming exams, to the ladies who we meet online and encourage me every single time we chat, to the funny ones who send me mails, to the one who come to check on me, to the newest one who makes me look at life entirely in an appreciative manner, to the ones who address me as if we've seen each other, then to the lady who has been WAOH to me in every aspect and calls me her aburo. You all know yourselves. God sure has no choice than to bless you all exceedingly.
Daddy without You, i am but dead. I just want to thank You for breathing life into me and making me see this day in great health and with new Hope. Thank You Lord for not giving up on me, thank You Lord for perfecting everything that concerns me and giving me a new beginning. I'm thankful especially 'cos from the time the clock ticked 12:00am August 7th 2008. You changed my story just like you did for the lame man at the beautiful gate, You are giving me testmonies that would amaze people and they would point to me and say "Isn't that the Rinsola who........?" .
Thank You Lord for Perfection and a new beginning. 08-07-08. Much love people!

Behind the scenes.......................

Please click the image on the left to visibly read contents ..........

Casting: I (God) don't call the qualified, i qualify the called.

Plot: Genesis chapter 1

Actors: You (Insert your name here) Isaiah 43 vs 1 : But now thus saith the LORD that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine.

Location: From your mothers' womb to your present location today.

Date filming begins: Before your were formed. Jeremiah 1 vs 4-5 :Then the word of the LORD came unto me, saying: 5. Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb ...................

Bloopers: Our sins. Romans 3 vs 23: For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.

I realized that a director never says 'CUT' if the actors/actresses are doing just the perfect thing. He cuts you when he either has an idea that would make that scene better or when he sees you're not doing the right thing. I guess when i do those things that God is against and those things that are not beneficial to my life and to those surrounding me, that's when He stands up and says CUT RINSOLA, CUT!. And when you are willing to listen and learn from a director, you become better day after day and i guess that's what makes you a better or great actor/actress. Same way, if we're willing to listen and learn from the Director of our lives, we'ld become better actors/actresses in our lives.

The movies we see today in theatres or on dvds are finished and perfected productions. But the real work is done BEHIND THE SCENES, when we hear the words: CUT, Now take two and stuffs like that. I've come to learn or read that it's tough being an actor/actress, especially when you're casted to take up crucial roles; but the men behind the scenes do a whole lotta hard work also, especially writing a good script, trying to make you fit into the character, and bringing a real and beautiful picture to the screen/theatre. All these men behind the scenes of these movies are just One Person behind the scenes of our lives and that Person is God - He's the ALL in One- The Scriptwriter, The Director, The Makeup artist, The Set designer......... The all you can think about that makes a great movie.

Without the Man behind the scenes, The star (Insert your name here) you see won't be called a star, 'cos the Man behind the scenes, perfects those scenes (Insert your situation) you're casted in and presents to you an award winning movie (Victory over whatever situation you would go through). 2nd Corinthians 12 vs 9 "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. " His grace is sufficient to see us through whatever scenes (situations) of our lives we are in .

As you go into this week, i just want to encourage you and remind you that when things seem stagnant, when things seem not to have materialized or when things seem not to be working out for you the way you want it, never forget that God is working behind the scenes of your life to perfect just what you may be expecting from Him. Not forgetting that 'Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.' James 1 vs 17

Can i say the father of light mentioned in the Scripture above is also the Lightning director? (LOL this is just me trying to be funny.)

Have a great and fulfilled week ahead people, and don't forget this is an encouragement; which means i'm needing it myself. Much love!

I'm learning & experiencing new and great things.........

Hello everyone, how've we been doing and how was your weekend? Happy father's day to all dads out there, and potential soon to be dads (Insert Dr Andy here)lol.

I've been having quite a lot of AHA moments with God lately, and each one is as new as it has never been heard or read before (if you know what i mean?). I was meant to share a different one with you all, but i found myself typing this out. Please take time to read this particular passage below, and also listen to the song playing on this page (That's my main testimony) God has been way too much for me.

2nd Chronicles 7 vs 14:

If My people who are called by My name, will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.
First thing i said to myself was, This passage can't be referring to me 'cos ..... (I was trying to justify myself) and suddenly, i heard His voice say "Doesn't this reveal to you that you're not being humble?". Isn't it amazing how God puts us in Check? (for me that was one of many ways). Here He was telling me that i needed to be humble and tell Him i was wrong for anything and everything i had done. In the Bible language and harsh words to my ears interprets it as : "Rinsola, you were wrong and it means you sinned!!!!".
Rinsola: but God don't i pray? You know i pray everyday, don't you?
God: You and i know what you always pray for, but never forget that the prayers of a sinner is an abomination unto My sight, and that of a righteous, better still humble man availeth much.
Rinsola: Insert confused look here @ the hearing of abomination!
As i sat down, He ministered to me what these sins could be either time wastage, prayerlessness, envy, malice, I'm just keeping away from her when i know in my mind it spells malice, greed, impure thoughts, just a joke lie, disobedience, pride, I don't have time for people like that, pretence, jealousy, taking that pen from your office to your house, hidden inside the heart sins that only the Spirit of God can discern. (REALITY CHECK!!!)
Rinsola: what? meaning WE all sin EVERY SINGLE DAY? (Not that i didn't know, but within me i was referring to great men of God).You can insert whoever's name you want to insert there, and answer to God when you're done (lol)
I now see why he wants us to HUMBLE ourselves. Many times we don't even know we have sinned. But He says that if we confess our faults, He is faithful and just to forgive them (I John 1vs 9).
2nd Chronicles 7vs 14b to me was like " Rinsola do your own part, and watch if i wouldn't do Mine".
Rinsola's job .............God's Job

1. If i Humble myself......... ..... ........He will Hear me (He would pay attention to me
2. If i Pray & Seek His face............. He will forgive me (for every single sin/fault)
3. If i turn from my wicked ways...He will Heal my land (My body, mind and soul)

I was humbled yet again by this passage and for me I've just been learning new things in my renewed walk with God. These few weeks have been challenging, yet mind blowing. I challenge you all who are not presently or genuinely in tune with Him to get back to your take me as i am walk with God, and begin first by seeking His face and i can assure you that you would be shocked at the things He will begin to show you and what He will begin to do. If you want to know what He's been doing in my life, i suggest you borrow the video of my recent weeks with Him from Him. You will rewind, pause, think, rewind, and keep rewinding I CAN ASSURE YOU!!!

Take care of yourselves, have a great week ahead, and let us remember to "Humble ourselves, pray, seek His face (on everything) and turn from our wicked ways". Much love!

Dealing with a conscious God................................

..........So a few Saturdays back, i was driving and a friends' call came in. I looked at my phone and when i saw the name of the person i was like "I'm not picking , 'cos when i called you, you didn't pick up either". As i drove over a bump, i heard the special still voice "Vengeance is mine, remember?" I remember replying Him, saying "But I'm not revenging, this is no serious issue, so why would i revenge? I'm just trying to make a point here". His response was, "When you retaliate, it is called vengeance". So what if i was sleeping or just sitting down, and someone calls me, and i don't feel like talking and i don't pick up the call?. His response: There's always a reason behind your acts, that is not vengeance, you don't feel too good to speak, right?
I remember smiling, and saying, God please, this is just everyday living with my friends, this isn't that serious. You know I will hold you accountable to all these serious and unserious things, right?. I've always known i was dealing with a conscious God, but that day and ever since that day, that incident has been like a written scar in my thoughts. I will give account for every millisecond of my existence, conscious or unconscious , so get it right and clear " You are dealing with the CONSCIOUS, NOTHING EVER OCCURS, WITHOUT KNOWING GOD" (Hebrews 4 vs 13: And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but ALL things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom WE MUST GIVE ACCOUNT).
I was reminded AGAIN, that "He's ever present, and He's really concerned and involved in my life and EVERYTHING that has to do with me, big deal or no big deal, serious or unserious". He whispered and said " Believe again, that I AM INDEED YOUR conscious FATHER".
As you start this month, be reminded again, that you have a CONSCIOUS, NOTHING EVER PASSES BY HIS SIDE WITHOUT KNOWING GOD. Be conscious and thankful that He is INDEED involved in your everyday life. Happy new month everyone, and i pray this month would be better and greater than months passed. Much love

.................My feelings

Have you ever tried to praise or thank God and suddenly you feel this rush of tears and immediately you become so weak?

-At that moment all hope is lost
-At that moment you cease to believe
-At that moment all you know & see is your problem
-At that moment your lips become too heavy to ask
-At that moment your heart bleeds heavily for you
-At that moment you've played the worst scenario possible
-At that moment you feel that is the end
-At that moment you're in your own world and the only inhabitant
-At that moment you wish you never sinned, you wish those mistakes were never made
-At that moment you desire to be someone else better, entirely other than who you're
-At that moment, you begin to ask yourself again, why me? why these situations?
At what moment, do you then wake to the reality of your problems being completely solved?
..I GUESS THE MOMENT GOD STEPS IN

So i was tagged........

So Darklecee tagged moi.
The rules:
1. Link the person who tagged you to this post-check!
2. Mention the rules in your blog –check!
3. Tell 6 unspectacular quirks of yours –check!
4. Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them –check!
5. Leave a comment on each of the tagged blogger’s blogs letting them know they’ve been tagged –check!This meme is about any particular mannerism you have, ok?
Some things about Rin-Rin shall be revealed abi?

1. If RinRin having an unbalanced sleep diet is a quirk, theck check it as #1 quirk.
She can go to bed at 6 am and function well enuff for the next 8hrs and go to bed at 2am again. She sure knows body no be wood, and would use the weekends for tunning up so she doesnt brake "break" down.

2. If RinRin writing her name everywhere is quirk, the check that as #2 quirk. Anywhere i go, and any oppurtunity i get, provided i have a pen with me, i would always write my name. Leave a mark everywhere u step.

3. If RinRin loving and taking garri anytime and season of the day is a quirk then check that as #3

4. If RinRin crying when winter begins is a quirk, then check that as #4 quirk. Lord why is today so cold, i know it is winter, but can we have snow without the cold?

5. If RinRin using only her nails to cut and shapen her nails is a quirk, then count that as #5 quirk. I don't use nail cutters or blades.

6. If RinRin loving to cook like she's on Maggi Kitchen is a quirk, then count it as #6.

Okay so who do i tag ? Aloted, Olamild, Allied, disgodkidd, Prettylyf, InukeOmotolaDavis

Hold on.....................

I missed you all, i don't think i would be able to catch up on the weeks i missed off blogville. So what have i been up to and what has been up to me? Lemme share some with you all:
* I became an aunt to a new niece
* I cut my hair, not too short though, (now i have braids on)
* God has been more than good to me, irrespective of my faults. (Duh, like God hasn't been so good to every other person).
So my friend decided to call me and ask if i wanted to go to Church, 'cos i haven't been to Church in like a month. She said she was motivated to go, since her muslim friend woke her up and reminded her about Church. She picked me up and we left for Church, but we missed our way there (that was our first time attending the Church). I asked her if she had the directions mapped out, and she said she did but she forgot it at home. Since we couldn't find the Church, we turned around and decided we would go into the first Church we see. There was this beautiful Church we saw just when we turned around, but no one said a word and few minutes later, we saw another Church and we drove into the lot and we got there just as the worship session was coming to an end.
The service started with the pastor introducing the minister of the day, who came along with his wife. They shared a short story about thier vision and their upcoming missionary trip to Indonesia. The pastor shared the story about a dream he had when he was in his early teens, and how much he'd been looking forward to the dream been fulfilled. He shared that along the line, he would sit and ask himself if he actually had the dream, or if it was just fantasy or wishful thinking.
Years passed by and nothing happened till this year when God placed it in his heart and that of his wife to go to Indonesia to share Christ with them. He then asked God why it took long before the dream materialized, and he said the response was "All while long, God was preparing him for the mission to Indonesia", all he ever went through during those years now seemed justified to him. He also reminded us about the story of Joseph and how long it took for Josephs' dream to be fulfilled, the events that transpired before the fulfillment of the dream, and most importantly the reasons why the events had to occur. If he hadn't been sold, he wouldn't be in Egypt, if he hadn't been in Egypt, he wouldn't have ended up been in potiphar's house, if Potiphar's wife had not accused him, he wouldn't be sent to jail, and if he hadn't gone to jail, he wouldn't have met the butler, and if he hadn't interpreted dreams, he wouldn't have become the #2 in Egypt, and if not for him (Joseph), his family would have died of hunger (Which i saw as the Ultimate).
He ended the message by sharing one of my favourite verses of the Bible Habakkuk 2 vs 2-3 "Then the LORD answered me and said, "Record the vision And inscribe it on tablets, That the one who reads it may run. 2. For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay".
I had to re-read this verse again, and i got a message from the words highlighted.
1. Record the vision and Inscribe it on tablets: Whatever God has shown you should be written down (am i thinking for record purposes?) and as we well know, inscriptions are hardly wiped off. It would remind you of His spoken words/promises, when you begin to forget or loose hope.
2. Appointed time: Timing is crucial with God
3. Goal: He has a UNIQUE purpose for every of His words to us.
4. It will not fail: No word that He speaks shall return to Him void. Isaiah 55 vs 11 "So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it."
5. Though it tarries: IT WILL take a while for His words to be fulfilled, because of the compulsory challenges we have to face along the line to prepare us for the task ahead.
6. Wait for it: it's a command, persevere, endure. When you are falling or you fall, ask for His grace, pick yourself up and keep waiting.
7. It will certainly come: Again, His words shall not return to Him void, He's assuring us AGAIN. Ezekiel 12 vs 25a "For I the LORD will speak, and whatever word I speak will be performed."
8. It will not delay: Remember He's all about the timing. He will never be a second late, at the right time and at the right place.
I don't know what you may be going through or what you've gone through, but if you're like me who feels hopeless at times, or who feels like all those dreams seem to be a lie 'cos they haven't been fulfilled, I hope these passages would encourage you to believe that He's working behind the scenes of your life, and very soon without delay He would bring those dreams to reality. Never forget that "we know that God causes ALL things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8 vs 28.
Hold on to His words, endure even in His grace and have a great week ahead. Much love!

Been a while

Would be back soooooooooooooooooooooooon. I'm sorry for the break in transmission. Much love

Caption this....

Great is thy faithfulness............

So on Saturday, I was thinking all about me, when one of my folks decided it was the best time for her to say silly things she wasn't meant to say. Nywayz, after waiting to be insulted and all, i had to take a drive down the street. I had barely gone on a 10 minutes drive when this song came to mind "Great is thy faithfulness" and ever since, I've had this song on my lips.
Immediately after i sang it once, I heard a word say "ALL you've ever NEEDED, His hands have provided". I remember repeating those words over and over again, and finally saying "Lord, I'm sorry for all my complaints through your faithfulness, and thank You for Your provision when i was in NEED'.
But a couple of hours ago, i started singing the song again and i heard another word "Morning by Morning, NEW MERCIES you see". I felt this guilt within me and i had to say again, "I'm sorry for being a nag, and I'm thankful for Your mercies in my life".
Truth is, I've messed up more than i can ever remember the counts, but through it ALL, God has been more than faithful than the word itself. He has indeed been a provider for my needs, i may not have all my wants now, but i have ALL that i need and that is HOPE (Him).
Try singing or reading this song sincerely, think back to times when you were in need or want, and ask yourself if He ever provided for your needs and what He did about your wants.

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee; Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be.
Chorus:
Great is Thy faithfulness! Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!

If you can read Ephesians Chapter 3, please do and if not, i hope verse 20 would encourage you.
"Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,"
Not being too spiritual, but God is INDEED FAITHFUL! Be encouraged, and have a funfilled and fulfilled week ahead.

Vals day as a single and married lady..................

As a single lady:
It's 12:00am, yet another day people attach attributes to:Valentine'sday, what other's call "Lovers day".I'm in my flowery hot pink PJ's. I deliberately saved this PJ's for this day. It didn't seem like i was going to be on the phone with that special person today, it didn't seem like i was going to be out there dinning with him, or him reminding me of his love. I felt this thrung of pain, and my eyes were heavy with tears.
I screamed "I'M LONELY, BUT WHY ME?" I sat by the edge of my bed, turned on the radio, but trust me that made things worse. Flashback of memories: memories of tales of love between friends of mine, and people i know. I had to switch off the radio, clung to my blanket and curved up like a ball. I was so restless, i had to get up and take another look at myself, I stood in front of the mirror, and asked myself all the possible whys? I'm a good looking, well mannered, and joyful lady, so why me? why don't i have someone in my life now?
There was this moment of silence in the room, trust me i even couldn't hear the wind, or sounds of crickets, or whatever. It was just so quiet, and i enjoyed it for a while, only to be interrupted by a call. Foluso my good friend was on the phone, she was crying. Foluso are u okay? i asked her, and she said yes, it's Kunle, and i'm just dumbfounded, i donnow what to do. I calmed her down, and started asking her all sort of questions, Is everyone alive? Are you pregnant? did he break up with u? did he cheat on you? Ki lo'n shele, o de bami soro now? (whats happening, please talk to me?) did he beat you? what did he do? and She answered no to all those questions. I just couldn't figure out why she was crying at that time of the day. So i told her no matter what it was she would be just fine, and assured her i was there for her, and she said yes she knew, but she was crying 'cos "HE JUST PROPOSED TO HER". Are you kidding me? Waoh, i'm so happy for her, but thats just one more of my friends and counting who would be getting married, and me still being single. I just couldn't contain it anymore, so i rejoiced with her and worst of all she said, i'm calling to let you know you would be my chief bridesmaid, and you would be going with me to shop for my dress (Within me i was on another cloud, all thoughts racing thru my mind).
Are u still there she asked me, and i was like yeah. I had to let her off the phone with an excuse that i had to be at work very early the next day. I made sure she knew i was happy for her and had no resentment whatsoever, not even a clue that i felt so down, and happy at the same time. Down that i still had no one, but happy that this guy sure made her happy today.
Since i already got myself a ticket to barbados, i just had to call in sick. I packed up a lauggage of lovely and comfy clothes, and in no time i would be on my way to the airport.
The fact that i don't have a man in my life now, doesn't mean he won't come anytime soon, and the fact that i'm single now, doesnt mean i can't have fun, and make myself happy. If i can't make myself happy and fufilled now, i doubt if the presence of any man in my life would make me happy or fulfilled. I've cried, i've hurt, i've felt so lonely, and depressed, but all these would not change a thing. I remembered hey, i've also LOVED LIKE IT WAS JUST ME IN LOVE, i've given my all in these past relationships, but it just didnt work, so what do i do? LET GO AND LET GOD!, and after crying the tears out of my tear gland, i decided it was enough. My cab would be here soon, and in a few hours i'ld be in Barbados.
I'm yet another happy person i can make myself to be. I'm going to have a blast today irrespective of a man visible or not in my life now.
HAPPY VALS DAY Ladies. To all the single ladies in blogsville. BE HAPPY, AND DON'T HAVE A PITY PARTY!


AS A MARRIED WOMAN:

On my way back from work, my sister called me up and asked if i could help pick up a few things at the grocery store, and stop over at her house. I did so, and even picked up a lovely cake, so we could nibble on since my man was out of town. Got there and unloaded the stuffs, cooked a nice dinner of yam and eggs. After dinner i decided to stay a while over at my sisters' since my niece was so much awake and wasn't going to sleep anytime soon. My sister begged me to stay till 11:30pm,since i was going to be the only one at home. I sure declined, 'cos i had a whole lotta stuffs to do at home. So she called my husband up and asked him to beg me to stay for a while, my husband sure does have ways he puts things to me that may make me see reason with him, so i decided to stay back. After all the chit chat, and memory lane visit i had with my sister, i decided it was time to leave. I left my sisters' house at 11:45pm, and tried calling my husband, but he didn't pick up his phone. I was wondering if he had gone to sleep already. I was also upset that he hadn't called to say all them lovely sweet nothings, since it was few minutes to vals day.
I drove home in silence, and had smiles on my face whenever i had any rememberance of funny times he and I had. I finally got home, drove into the garage, and tried switching on the lights but they just wouldn't turn on. I was a liittle irritated, but since i knew my way round the house, i felt i would figure it out without slipping off. I got into the house but couldn't see nothing since it was so dark, so i picked up the phone to call my husband to ask why the lights weren't coming on. I was so shocked when i heard his phone ringing close to me; I talked out loud "WHAT IS HAPPENING?" His car isn't in the driveway or garage since he dropped it off at the autoshop before travelling. Nywayz, i walked up to where i heard the phone ring, and lo and behold it was his phone not me hearing stuffs. I screamed out "Babe are you at home, can u hear me? whats happening?" There was no response so i called my sister, and she was like "I need to go to sleep miss lady, would talk to you tomorrow".
Was that not my sister i just spoke to? did she say she was going to sleep, and not even bothered at what i just told her?. I would be fine i told myself, and wondered what was going on. I had thoughts racing through my mind as to what reason could he give that his phone was not with him after i spoke to him earlier on. I was quite worried, so i walked up to the bedroom, but as i sat on the bed, the lights came on (i screamed!). The site of what i saw, i honestly can't begin to explain to you. It left me speechless. Here was my 5'11" man standing by the bathroom door. "Oh no u didn't" was all i could say, and he replied "Oh yes i did, and would do it over and over again". My husband had arrived earlier from his trip, and planned with my sister to keep me over at her place late so he could get things in place before i came home. Guess what? the bedspread was changed to a new spread of pale pink and yellow (figure out that color combo, i bet you it's HOT!). There were a couple of boxes wrapped by the side of the bed, he wanted me to open it immediately, but trust me i was overexcited that I started crying,and sure they were tears of joy, 'cos God has used this man to bring me more joy, and assurance that things would be fine in my life. All i did was cry and hold on to him. All he did was say "Babe i love yous o much". Nywayz ,i took a bath and layed down close to my man to sleep, and guess what? i looked up and the ceiling had this shine-shine (let's be razz for a second) letterings, saying " So far, It's been a wonderful ride being your husband, and I WOULD MARRY YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN". I Couldn't contain myself, and i remembered what God once told me "When it's your time, I would bring My pick of man into your life". I had tears trickling down my cheeks.
Now it was my turn to give my husband his gift. I gave him an envelope and told him to open it. He did, and after that, he carried me and i saw tears trickling down my husband's cheeks (That was the second time ever, the first time was when he read a letter i wrote to him before i met him). With his hands on my stomach, he said a prayer, and looked at me and said "Baby, this is the BEST VALENTINES GIFT EVER, and THANKS for being the WOMAN TO CARRY A PART OF OUR LOVE IN YOU" He was referring to the report in the envelope i gave him, I AM PREGNANT!.
I couldn't ask for anything better that moment. I'm Thankful to God for my husband and for His gift of love in our home.
To all the ladies in the house, may this and many of better things alike be your tale. HAPPY VALS DAY! LOVE YOU ALL MUCH


(Wrote this last year)

Random thoughts.............

Straight to the matter at hand:
Well, for those who live in America, you all know this is the season for some extra cash in your pockets right? This is the season when you have to file your taxes and see who owes whom. Either you owe IRS or you're free from their hands (Which many people pray for).
Nywayz, so i was just think-talking to myself and wondered why and i've always wondered why on earth do people ask for the total of whatever they have placed in the OFFERING basket for the past year when filing for thier taxes, and why do people give out checks during offering? (Why would you not cash the money before coming to church? or are you keeping a record of how your money is being spent?)
Well, the first thing that came to my mind was Mathew 6 vs 3-4: But when thou doest alms, let not thy left hand know what thy right hand doeth. That thine alms may be in secret: and thy Father which seeth in secret himself shall reward thee openly. But, the money that goes into the basket isn't alms, It's an offering. So i felt that scripture didn't answer my question enough.
So i decided to share this think-talk with you all. Share your insights with me please:
Why do people need thier offering/tithe information for the year when filing thier taxes?
Why do people give checks during offerings?
Disgressing to another serious issue. With the way things are going at my end with tailors, styles and deadlines, It seems i would beg mama Suraju to teach me how to sow clothings. It is so frustrating that i can't get a great tailor to sow the loveliest of styles on my ankara without paying some ridiculous prize. I need to add sowing to my hubby, and who knows very soon i could become one of the major designers whose speciality is African prints.
Happy new week everyone, take care of yourselves and have a funfilled and fufilled week ahead. Much love from Rinsola the aspiring tailor.

MP and I

MP and I have been in a relationship for four years, and truth be told It’s been a relationship I’ve always thanked God for ‘cos when I look at other peoples’ relationship with the other one and the complains they give, I’m really grateful with mine (Though I’m not content with MP, but I really believe it’s heading for the best).
My mum actually introduced me to MP, and When MP and I started our relationship, it took me a while to get to know the real MP, and one thing I loved about MP was that he was just different from others; he was just so special and unique in his own way. Everyone close to me knew MP and each time they wanted me to help out with an errand during occasions they knew the most effective way to get me to do the job was to ask MP to help me out.
Nywayz, three years into our relationship MP decided to share the “TRUTH” with me, long story short; he told me he believed that he wasn’t the main person for me, but that he was in my life to fulfill a purpose and take me through certain stages of my life. Ever since he unraveled the truth to me, I’ve always had that at the back of my mind, but I’ve always prayed that whenever MPs time was coming to an end, God would have another one lurking around. (Selfish but truthful prayer).
MP started acting up with me, but things were still within control. Fast-forward thru my silent times with MP. He decided he wouldn’t talk to me again (This sure sent me into a depressed mood) After a whole lot of pleading, consoling, promises and pledge to be my over best self to him, I decided it was time to involve a third party, so I called a couple of my friends who knew MP quite well, and told them all I believed they needed to know. They pleaded with MP and funny thing is all MP did was give one funny sigh ALL THE TIME they were pleading. It confused me so much that everyone was asking me if I was really sure I didn’t do anything wrong. Nywayz I left him and went home that night, but I was so so restless and decided I was going to report him to God, ‘cos this was not the right time to loose him at all (BAD TIMING). Imagine people being warmed up by their other ones, who would warm me up? Who would I cry to? Who would be ready to take my mess, excess and my tears? Who would I burden with my burden? Who would I share my fantasies with? I just had to talk to God ‘bout him, ‘cos honestly everyone had tried their best but there was just no hope. So I started reporting him to God and guess what? Rinsola was WEEPING to God that night (Yes o, WEEP, not cry) I said all the sayables to God about MP that night and I slept off.
Next morning I decided to ask a friend to take me to see him. We got there and at just one touch from me, MP started flowing in his sweet accent (So God doesn’t joke with my tears? Honestly if you were the one I wept to, you would not allow me a second without helping me out). MP started flowing o, and Rinsola started jelling with smiles and tears trickling down her cheeks. It was so good to be true so I asked MP to take me home, but also that my friend should tag along at the back, incase MP changes his mind and leaves me rideless. MP took me home, made sure I was comfortable enough before he said goodnight, and eversince, MP has allowed me 15minutes of his early morning time till date to assure me that we’re back together again.
I’m so grateful to God for answering my prayers regarding MP and after embarrassing myself (My mouth was in an indescribable shape/form. I kinda feel God shook His head and said “Look at my Rinsola spoiling her mouth all ‘cos of MP”. But hold on, can someone be ladylike when weeping? Please teach me how if it’s possible, ‘cos mine was just a sorry state).
Well, MP is doing well now and I’m praying to God that MP should help me go through this stage of my life till God brings the new one into my life, ‘cos I need MP more than ever, especially during this cold, freezing, snowy, unpredictable season of the year.
MP (the make and model of my car).

Lest I forget, HAPPY NEW MONTH and I believe every new month, week and day is the beginning of something new in our lives. I pray you’d have new and more reasons to be grateful to God this month. One of my reasons to be thankful this week are for people I’ve been blessed by, through the blogville community, for the friends I’ve made through this avenue (quite a reasonable bunch). I'm thankful to God for ALL of you, but for this week, I’m grateful to God for Pastor Israel , Niyi (the commenter) and Believer. (I’m thankful for your time and your words).
Have a fulfilled and fulfilled week ahead.

Lack of sleep.....

Hmn......... ......... ........ So i set the alarm for 4:30 am, 'cos the sales start at 5am. Only for me to switch off the alarm when it woke me, 'cos i just wasn't feeling the need to get up at that time. Finally i woke up at past 6am, got myself ready and left the house.
After picking all the neccesary things i needed, heading towards the cashier, i saw this long line. I was like "I'm not feeling this line in any way or form, no be by force to shop the sales". Hubby goes "You love the sales, right? then you have to love the line". I honestly wasn't too happy 'bout the long queue, but i realized i had crunch biscuit in my handbag and he had a bottle of water with him, well i guess that combination would do till it's my turn.
So standing sideways, but in front of me, was this GOOD LOOKING, FYNE,FOINE, KWEET, CUTE , great looking dude. I raised my head up, smiling, with my dentition being exposed and i took a look at my hubby for a few seconds. He looked back down at me, smiled and said "You're thanking God for my beauty right?" I smiled at him and silently replied "........ this guy is fiiiineeeeeee". My husband looked down at me, smiled and replied "Thanks, i know; but i can't help it thats how i was created, thanks to God and beautiful genes." Well, i know you're good looking and all, but i'm talking 'bout someone else here.
Nywayz, I wasn't bothered about the long queue anymore, 'cos i had something else to take up my time, till it was my turn. Finally dude, noticed i was looking at him, and said "You woke up early for the sales, right", and i replied him and said " Nahhhh, i didn't sleep at all, but u sure look like you woke up just for the sales". He smiled back, and said "yeah, well that's true". I didn't stop there, i went ahead to say, "You know you're good looking, right?" So shy, he answered and said thanks, and finally turned towards me saying " Isn't that a wedding band on your finger?, and isn't that your man?" I replied him saying "Yeah thats true, but being married doesn't forbid me to appreciate beauty when i see it". I saw a cute looking man standing next to me, and i had to tell him he was cute, 'cos thats true. (You know guys would forever feel overly cool with themselves sometimes). When he noticed my husband was looking at a different direction, he came closer, and said in a very quiet voice, "how 'bout lunch sometime soon?". I replied and said "I GOT EYES FOR BEAUTY, But sorry I GOT MY EYES FIXED ON A BEAUTY ALREADY! but i still believe you'r cute though. My husband turned around, and I rested my head on his chest and placed my right hand on the left side of his chest, and smiled. My husband smiled back, feeling so so so so psyched up and cool with himself, with pride on his face, he looked at the guy, and said "How 'bout that response?" . (So he was pretending to have his attention fixed somewhere else all the while?).
The guy feeling kinda ashamed, looked back at us, and said "You both look like a wonderful couple and i admire that, but I hope you weren't offended?" As if it was planned, we replied the guy together saying "Nahhh, it's okay". So with my husband's hands round my waist he whispered and, said "I'm pscyhed up about the compliment, how about taking you shopping again, next week?". I smiled back at him, only for me to hear "Hello, Hi, did you find everything okay?"
Geeeeezzzzzzzzz, IT WAS ALL FANTASY ON A LONG QUEUE?............. .... This is what u get for not getting enuff sleep. ALL FOR SALESSSSSSS (Mind y'all i'm not a cheap person, but i appreciate crazy sales, it saves u a whole bunch on cash). And don't tell me you all don't have those funny fantasy moments.
(This happened during thanksgiving sales 2006). Just decided to share this with you all, 'cos i was reminded about it again. Have a great day people.

Happy New Year (Not too late)

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!. Olamild after reading ur message, i knew i just had no choice than to put up something.
I'm so grateful to God for yet another year, i honestly can't thank Him enough, but i pray i would always be thankful to Him. I also pray that we'ld all have numerous reasons to be thankful to God this year. I personally i'm looking forward to being a recipient of His 2008 BLESSINGS, I'm going to believe Him and His words especially those things i thought to be impossible (EVERYTHING is possible to him who believes Mark 9:23) and i hope you all are highly expectant this year also.
To my fellow bloggers, lookerbys' and readers let's walk through 2008 with God, believing Him, and that His grace, strength and love would see us through this year. Remember the challenges would come, but it is POSSIBLE with Him.
Happy New year once again. Take care and have a funfilled and fufilled week ahead!